2005: Love and Lost

The year 2005 was great year for me. There are many experiences where I felt love and sorrow in the months of the year. This year, I felt the cupid's arrow when I met Say Alonzo when I was covering for the NCAA issue of Chalk Magazine. When I first met her, I felt an unusual feeling that made jump for joy but only for a small duration of time.

She became my inspiration in my work and given a different joy in life. But 2005 does evolve around her, but also the death of my brother and some of my college professors namely Professor Orlando Punzalan and Mr. Astrologio. The lost people that I lost this year gave a courage to withstand the trials the life brings. Trying to overcome the trials of life made me feel determined to conquer it and face them with courage.

This year brought oppurtunities for me like freelance writing. It opened a lot of doors and contacts in finding my true calling. In this year, many things happened to me. It made me strong, hopeful and determined to face life that lies ahead.

The year that was ...

The year 2005 was a year full of discoveries, tragedies and trials. This year, several oppurtunities knocked on my door but I did not open. It is a year of DEATH in the family that further strenghten us this past few months.

The year, I was a coward to face my dreams and hope for a brighter future. It is a year of trials in the field of job hunting.

CONFUSION

Living in a world full of decisions and choices is a difficult and hard job to live with. The pressures in your family, job, responsiblity and life makes you want to give up in an instant but in the process you are something or obliged to do.

Certain decisions and tasks you have to decide on takes a different role in what will happen to you if made a crucial decision. Like searching for a job that you love and you will be happy with, they offer you a job that at first you are hesitant because you do not like job because you are not happy doing it. But one oppurtunity comes along, they made a BIG deal out of it and points to the job you are obliged to do. Now, you are trapped in a traffic jam. Follow your what your heart feels or follow what they think it is right for you.

But what is right for me? A question only I can answer. I always asks this question a dozen times. If following their advice is what is right for me even though it is against my belefs and principles in life because they want me to and not what I want to do in my life. Seriously, I am confused on my situation because I want to somehow grow my knowledge in what I want to do in life. I know it is for the best.

There are times I felt I am prisoner trapped in a cage of expectations from people. They put a cork in my dreams and my desires in life. The reason of their cage treatment is my health issues and I cannot stand on my own by myself. The health reasons I can understand but one that I cannot handle myself is very unlikely. How can I stand by myself when a certain knowing how to ride a taxi from ABS to home, you made a BIG DEAL out of it.

In my part, I must learn how live by my own. Create and decide decisions on my own and learn the facts of urban living.

SHE

Have you ever felt that someone has made a sperk in your life? Have you tasted that better half of life?

For me, I have felt a different feeling since I did the NCAA assignment. At first, it was like a acquaintance but there is a feeling that made me feel it something different. She is friendly and comfortable to talk to. She makes my day complete if I read her text or see while she is reporting.

I felt this kind of feeling when I first had a crush in highschool. The more I think of it. I became in love with her. She made a difference in my life and how I react to certain situations. This feeling is so light like a cloud that carries wherever you go.

Confessions of a Harry Potter Fan

Have you ever felt that Haary Potter, Hermione Granger and Ron Weasley becomes the center of your universe. Everything you think is surrounded in this fictional character.

I bear witness to what is the feeling of anticipation of reading his books and watching his movies to suffice your taste of the magic. The minute you read his book, I mean book 1, you will be drawn to its magic and adventure that you keep on reading it.

In my opinion, the book itself is a revelation on what is being a nobody in a world of full of dominant persons controlling on what we should believe or how we could act. Harry Potter books is not just a book for entertainment but a way to be inspired with his character or personality. He gives confidence and self-esteem to people you ran out of it. The characters in its books also portrays a detailed reality on what people think and say.

Harry Potter books are likewise a fictional book that does not grasp on witchcraft but shed values to children and adults about life's challenges. It shows an adventure to life's reality in life.