CONFUSION

Living in a world full of decisions and choices is a difficult and hard job to live with. The pressures in your family, job, responsiblity and life makes you want to give up in an instant but in the process you are something or obliged to do.

Certain decisions and tasks you have to decide on takes a different role in what will happen to you if made a crucial decision. Like searching for a job that you love and you will be happy with, they offer you a job that at first you are hesitant because you do not like job because you are not happy doing it. But one oppurtunity comes along, they made a BIG deal out of it and points to the job you are obliged to do. Now, you are trapped in a traffic jam. Follow your what your heart feels or follow what they think it is right for you.

But what is right for me? A question only I can answer. I always asks this question a dozen times. If following their advice is what is right for me even though it is against my belefs and principles in life because they want me to and not what I want to do in my life. Seriously, I am confused on my situation because I want to somehow grow my knowledge in what I want to do in life. I know it is for the best.

There are times I felt I am prisoner trapped in a cage of expectations from people. They put a cork in my dreams and my desires in life. The reason of their cage treatment is my health issues and I cannot stand on my own by myself. The health reasons I can understand but one that I cannot handle myself is very unlikely. How can I stand by myself when a certain knowing how to ride a taxi from ABS to home, you made a BIG DEAL out of it.

In my part, I must learn how live by my own. Create and decide decisions on my own and learn the facts of urban living.